I felt like I had one last shred of hope left.

I wonder why God dangles something in your face, only to take it away.

FUCK YOU I DON'T CARE IF I BLAME HIM.
HE COULD FIX THIS.
FUCK YOU I DON"T CARE IF ITS HIS PLAN.


I have moved out of sober living in to my parents because I was going to school in 2 months and moving there. I was going to feel young again, I had something to hold on too. I was going somewhere. I was going to feel new again. I was going to feel alive again. I was going to feel as if I had a purpose, I was excited. I was stoked, I valued it. I was going to learn and I was going to teach and I was going to meet new people. I was going to finish what I started 3 years ago, I was not going to give it away again. I was leaving my old life behind, I was starting a new one. I was not going to be stuck in my dead end job, I was looking forward.

I called my school yesterday, I don't have good credit, my parents can't help with money, I have no Cosigner. I cant get any loans to go.

Everything was planned,
and now its all changed,
and i have nothing going on anymore,

I'm giving up,


fuck you God if your just going to take it away.


I have no hope.


SO I ASK YOU
WHATS THE FUCKING POINT ANYMORE.