I sat under the stars and thought about how much I wanted to shake you when I saw you. This is what I was after. You looked at me like I was a stranger, The blood in my arms, the fear, faster and faster. You turned me away, I look at myself in this moment over and over, the pain in my eyes- the shred of hope I had that somehow maybe you still cared about me, only to be proven wrong-only to have you literally slam the door in my face. Oh how I wish this was different And I refuse to see you in my mind anymore (I wish this was a choice), I can't believe I loved you