there is something I need to say,


i walked down the path, of heat and lillies, and i was giving up on myself.

I walked down the path listening to this music of sadness and weight.

I stopped at the end and saw all the bugs flying and the water and i thought about how God could make such a beautiful thing outside when all i felt was terror and ugliness inside.

I held my phone in my hand and i looked down at it and i read the message from her,
a soul with depth and weight, a soul with pain and tragedy trying to hold on,

and i read it and i felt it deep inside, someone that made me feel not so alone, someone that made me feel like i could keep going and it would be okay because i wasnt the only one in the world feeling this way.

I cried deep tears but not because of the sadness but because of the compassion,

because she was something that God gave me inspite of all the terror and tragedy,


you think that hope is everything external: things, places, when really it can be as simple as someone on the other end of the line.


she was hope,

in a time of no hope.


YOU MAKE ME FEEL BEAUTY, HONESTY, EVERYTHING THATS IN MYSELF, EVERY SINGLE ASPECT OF GOOD. YOU ARE EVERY SINGLE ASPECT OF GOODNESS, HONOR, AND BEAUTY