I want to run away from here, leave everything behind, become someone different, forget about everyone that ever made me smaller. I want to let my dreams die, I want to forgive myself, I want to let go. I want to travel with nothing and no one with no idea of where I'm going. I want to learn how to not care about whoever whatever wherever I am, where I continue to take steps too. I want to not let anyone or anything define me, including my past. I want to rid myself of all my jadedness. I want to be messy and unconventional, and ten steps behind instead of ten steps ahead. I want to be the blood coursing in my veins. I want to be airless, and light- a cloud in the sky. I want to be maddening and to feel every emotion to its fullest without feeling guilty about it. I want to miss no one, while everyone continues to try to find me, while they wonder why the hell they took advantage of me. I want to be on my own as my own and to not apologize for any of it.
I seek freedom,
Meaning,
Truth,
Above all else.
And somehow I can contain none of this.
Not one single fucking thing.
Piece of shit worthless nobody ashamed flawed forgotten invisible lost selfish untrustworthy not accepted judged
Piece of fucking shit piece of fucking shit
No one will admit other wise
Actions
Always
Speak
Louder
Than
Words.
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