and this is supposed to be just a job, just a day at work, and somehow i get rattled and shook up in my emotions where i am hiding my tears barely and fucking fighting myself fighting fighting fighting


i am so tired of feeling like this, like i meet people everyday, that crush my fucking soul.


and i don't want to need anyone and i don't want to be treated like this, and i need to fucking find someone better


i feel so dumb i cant stop crying