My mother looked at me,

"I think I finally realized why I don't love you" She said.

I knew she didnt, but i'd never heard her admit as much, I tried to tell myself i was intrigued, like a scientist on the edge of a breakthrough, but my throat closed up and i had to make myself breathe.


"you remind me everything that I have failed at.I don't know how i could have raised a child that could turn out so ruined"


this i knew too,


this i knew.